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| Saturday, December 27, 2008 |
I'm upset.
Very upset.
I spend my xmas crying in bed.
The tears can't stop flowing even till now.
My smile is just a facade,
please pardon me.
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| 11:35 PM |
| Thursday, December 25, 2008 |
We're driving slow through the snow on 5th Avenue
And right now radio's all that we can hear
Now we ain't talk since we left, it's so over due
It's cold outside but between us its worse in here
The world slows down
But my heart beats fast right now
I know this is the part
Where the end starts
I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers
I don't wanna try now
All that's left is good-bye
To find a way that I can tell you
I hate this part right here
I know you'll ask me to hold on
And carry on like nothing's wrong
But there is no more time for lies'
Cause I see sunset in your eyes
It's hard to find a sole mate that could truely understands you.
Even without me uttering a word, he will know what I'm thinking.
The someone that will listen to me and understand how I feel.
The someone that will just feel for me even without me sharing.
The someone that will just paint a smile on my face when he sees me frown.
The someone that could give me the attention, the care, the love that I need all year round.
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| 12:04 PM |
| Monday, December 22, 2008 |
I just randomly feel like blogging!
Have been skipping school recently to attend work.
I'm like a happy girl at work cause It makes me feel home,
with all the fun loving colleagues around,
unlike school, it's super boring and It's a pain to my arse.
Can't wait for FYP to end so that I can work almost everyday.
You know, time = money!
Recently I've been on diet.
I shit if I had more then 2 meals?
No more milk tea for me.
It's gonna be ice lemon tea or chrysanthemum.
I'm trying to drink plain water but it's tastless.
I want a flat tummy please.
My dark eye rings are conquring my eyes.
I feel so ugly.
I need an "eraser" to erase it!
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3 more days to xmas.
Gonna spread my love by baking cookies for beloved friends & colleagues.
I have been into baking recently.
And I just baked brownies like last tuesday.
But it taste a little to chocolaty.
Gonna improve on it next time.
In a blink of eye 2009 is coming.
New year, new resolutions.
And my resolutions for next year is
to earn more money, stay positive and happy!
Find a stable full time job after graduate,
Maybe as Giordano TCSA2?
So that I'll get 1k for long service award after 5 years.
Okay, I'm kidding.
Oh oh,
Twilight is my new love now.
Gonna borrow the books from my colleague
as she own the whole series of it.
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| 12:32 AM |
| Wednesday, December 03, 2008 |
For the past one and a half week my soul wasn't with me.
It has been flying around and my mind was just day dreaming all the way.
My heart and mind wasn't in the project room,
I miss working,
cause the fun & laughter there make me feel carefree & comfy.
Perhaps, It's a place that I called home.
And I've been avoiding staying out late.
Preferred going home straight after school.
Cause everyday I've been feeling lethargic,
and my bed is my companion for now.
Final Year Project is driving me crazy.
It's a waste of time.
Cause basically everyday I've been staying inside doing nothing.
I admit I've a robot to program on.
But I have no feelings for it.
Cause I tried dealing with it but it just didn't go the way I commended.
And with the time spend inside the fish tanks,
I can actually earn more money for my allowance.
Cause ever since FYP started,
I can only work during weekends.
And the amount earned per month can merely support my basic essentials.
I screwed up my interview for British Airline yesterday.
I wanted to back out when I reached the lobby,
cause I know I'll make a fool out of myself when It comes to Chinese.
And I really did.
I was given a English passage on Queen Victoria's reign and a Chinese passage on economy.
I got a little nervous so I read the English passage like a bullet train.
After glancing through the Chinese passage,
I just admit the truth to the panel that my Chinese ain't good.
She asked me to give it a try.
I stared blankly at those bunch of unfamiliar words,
read the first two words and I didn't know how to continue.
She explained to me that they're looking for cabin crews with fluent mandarin
as their route are mainly to china and etc.
I apologized for taking up her time, she gave me a warm smile and a hand shake.
For a moment, I just feel the world's crumbling down on me.
I failed auto cad for I-don't-know-what-reason.
Which cause me to drop a complimentary module to repeat it.
So I started my FYP later then those normal students by a month.
And my attachment got delayed till next year march.
Which means I'll only graduate after June.
So from January till march I'm gonna be free,
dumbly waiting for attachment to start.
Which is a waste of time.
And recently I've been having flash backs,
walking down memory lanes.
So many mixed feelings came rushing by.
Perhaps I need some time alone,
Or maybe someone to enlighten me.
It's time for me to wake up from my dreams,
stop whining about FYP and start touching up on my project.
Michelle,
Everything will be fine.
Tomorrow will be a better day.
It will be . . .
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| 11:24 PM |
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